'I didn't ruin Amy': Blake Fielder claims he wasn't responsible for early death of tragic singer Amy Winehouse

  • Blake Fielder admits introducing her to drugs but says he's not to blame
  • Former convict and drug addict can't get a job because of 'what happened' 
  • Now lives in Leeds with his girlfriend and two children and has found God
  • Says his life has been made a misery because of public perception of him 

The former husband of Amy Winehouse has claimed he didn't 'ruin' the tragic star after introducing her to drugs during their turbulent relationship.

The singer's intense marriage with Blake Fielder-Civil was known to be the inspiration for Back To Black which sold 14million copies, but her former husband feels he's been vilified since her death in 2011.

The stricken star's path to self-destruction was well documented in the media as she battled with an eating disorder, drugs and alcohol addictions, and was regularly seen heavily intoxicated at high-profile events.

Loving eyes: The singer's intense marriage with Blake Fielder-Civil was known to be the inspiration for Back To Black which sold 14million copies

Loving eyes: The singer's intense marriage with Blake Fielder-Civil was known to be the inspiration for Back To Black which sold 14million copies

You know I'm no good: Blake Fielder has been blamed for introducing Amy to drugs and putting her on a destructive path that eventually led to her early demise

You know I'm no good: Blake Fielder has been blamed for introducing Amy to drugs and putting her on a destructive path that eventually led to her early demise

New life: Blake now lives in Leeds with his girlfriend, Sarah Aspin
Blake Fielder's girlfriend Sarah Aspin

New life: Blake, left, now lives in Leeds with his girlfriend Sarah Aspin, right, the mother of his two children

Blake, who was in prison for theft and carrying an imitation firearm when his wife died, admitted in 2012 that he did 'introduce drugs into the relationship', after toxicology reports revealed that her death was the result of alcohol, not drugs.

And it was revealed by The Mail on Sunday that he even offered cocaine to his 14-year-old brother when they visited Amy and Blake on her tour bus in Scotland in 2006.

In the first interview since the dramatic allegation, Blake doesn't outright deny the claim when asked about it. 

The recovering drug addict, who has battled with cocaine, crack and heroin in the past, is now estranged from his family so goes simply by Blake Fielder. The family, who live in Claypole in Lincolnshire, have apparently been ostracised by residents in their town because of the public perception that Blake led to the singer's demise, reports The Times Magazine.

However, Blake claims he was not responsible for her death, despite introducing her to drugs.

He said: ‘I don’t think I ruined her, no. I think we found each other and certain people need to realise that she did have other addictions before she met me. She wasn’t a happy, well adjusted young woman, you know, and I find it disrespectful to imply I was some Machiavellian puppet master.'

Singer Amy Winehouse and her husband Blake Fielder-Civil arrive at London's Gatwick airport today after returning from a vacation on the Caribbean island of St Lucia
Blake Fielder-Civil, the husband of British singer Amy Winehouse, arrives at the High Court in London, Monday, November, 2008

What is it about men: Amy and Blake at Gatwick Airport after returning from a holiday in St Lucia in 2007, left, and Blake outside the High Court in London, right, appealing his conviction for assault 

Me and Mr Jones: Amy and Blake returning from Miami at LA Airport after getting married in 2007

Me and Mr Jones: Amy and Blake returning from Miami at LA Airport after getting married in 2007

The former grammar school student and music video assistant claims that the public perception that he 'ruined' the star has made his life a misery.

He recently consulted on the documentary movie Amy, due to be released this month, which follows their intense relationship, which she sings about in many of her most iconic hits. It paints a fairly dim picture of Blake, who has been accused - particularly by her father Mitch - as being the source of many of her problems. But despite denying any responsibility for her death, he admits that the film is fair.

The director of the movie, James Gay-Rees, told The Times Magazine: 'He was no angel but she was no angel. I don’t buy into this idea that he ruined her. Personally, I think she wanted someone like that.'

And Blake also points out that she had struggled with addiction and bulimia before the pair met as he talks about the way he has been treated since her death, adding that 'Amy wouldn't have liked me being treated like that'.

He adds: 'My family disintegrating, my children probably having to live with it, me getting spat at … It’s all par for the course because I married somebody I was in love with and I’m not talented so therefore I’m nothing.' 

He can only hold her: The pair at the 2007 MTV Movie Awards held at the Gibson Amphitheatre in Universal City, California

He can only hold her: The pair at the 2007 MTV Movie Awards held at the Gibson Amphitheatre in Universal City, California

Rehab: Amy Winehouse had been trying to get her life back on track when she died, Blake believes

Rehab: Amy Winehouse had been trying to get her life back on track when she died, Blake believes

Blake now lives in Leeds with his girlfriend, Sarah Aspin, an NHS administrator, and their two children and claims to have found God. 

The convicted criminal and recovering addict claims that he can't get a job because of 'what happened' with Amy. He also says that his last relapse was around a year ago and he still attends Narcotics Anonymous meetings.

The pair were married in Miami in 2007. They had an on-off relationship and Blake initiated divorce proceedings in 2009 for adultery while he was serving time in prison for beating up a pub landlord then trying to buy him off for £200,000.

He claims she had a very open attitude to sex, akin to many men, which he had struggled to deal with because it was so different to all his other girlfriends. 

Winehouse was just 27 when she died - the same age as many other stricken stars including Janis Joplin and Kurt Cobain who died of drug overdoses - and Blake was in prison at the time for theft and carrying an imitation firearm.

She had been seeing director Reg Traviss before her death, but Blake claims she did ring him in prison and told him 'it was always you' in the weeks before her death.

But he also admitted she had written to him refusing a meeting because she was trying to make a go of things with Traviss. 

Love is a losing game: Blake feels he has been vilified for falling in love with Amy and will never be forgiven because he doesn't have her talent
Tears dry on their own: He highlighted that she had struggled with demons before they met

Love is a losing game: Blake feels he has been vilified for falling in love with Amy and will never be forgiven because he doesn't have her talent. He highlighted that she had struggled with demons before they met

He claimed he had been saving up time on his prison phone to ring her on the Saturday she died but when he did, there was no answer. 

When he came out of prison, he went on a binge which left him in a coma for two weeks.

He said that his life has been a misery since his release and his brothers were bullied at school because people believe he was responsible.

His brother Harry last week talked about the impact it has had on their family.

He said: ‘They seemed hell-bent on destroying each other and didn’t care about dragging others down with them. It was like watching two speeding trains hurtle towards each other before a violent crash.

‘I felt guilty because everyone knows it was Blake who introduced Amy to hard drugs. I didn’t speak to him for about two years because I blamed him for so many things. I didn’t hate him. I just wanted Amy to be still alive. We got back in touch only a couple of weeks ago.

‘People spat at us and called us junkies. Blake was demonised and local people behaved as if we had a contagious disease they didn’t want to catch. Mum and Dad split up under the strain. We had always been very close, but now we rarely see our dad.'

During the interview, he also admits how he regrets a staged photo shoot as he went to visit her grave for the first time after her death. He admits he was paid and was using drugs at the time.

Amy's mother was reportedly furious about the shoot.

'I regretted that the minute it started,' he said. 

Amy Winehouse ex-Blake Fielder claims he wasn't responsible for her early death

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